haay.. i don't know what i'm supposed to be feeling right now.
sad? happy? humm...

i'll just talk about the happy part because the sad thing is
really... POINTLESS. again i repeat, i am happy with my relationship
with red right now. i'm here in the library nga waiting for him to
reply to my email. (haha he replyed already!^_^) kanina, i wasn't
able to talk to him that much kasi the lrt he rode daw kept on going
broke that's why he spent more than an hour in there. anyway, at
least we're talking right now.

hehe.. i'm sorry if red is all i talk about lately. it's just that
he makes me happy.. i haven't felt this way about our relationship
for a long time. that's why i'm basking in the feel of it. haay..
I HOPE SOME PEOPLE WOULD COMMENT ALREADY EVEN THOUGH YOU DON'T
LIKE THE PERSON OR SOMETHING IM TALKING ABOUT. haha..

humm.. i think i've exhausted the topic about red already so i'll
talk about something else. humm.. college life. nothing great about
it like what i read from others. well, for me it isn't. might
be because i'm in a foreign land. haha.. ala lang it's really
different when you're here. it's just too.. serious. maybe i'm
just not used to this kind of thing. I'LL GET USED TO IT. hehe..
what's bumming me out pa is that i don't go with anybody. i mean,
no one. no one to sit beside in class.. during lunch.. talk to..
no one. haha.. anti-social ko noh? ala lang hehe.. at least during
the free time that i DO have, i get to talk with red.

psychology class was.. boring today. humm.. i guess i learned
something. TIGER WOODS' WIFE BOUGHT A LABRADOODLE. ohh joy. i had
to fight myself from closing my eyes. haha sorry to the person
behind me as i was shifting all over the place.

haay.. ok something's GOT TO BE WRONG with me. ala lang haay..
i just don't want to mention it because it's just.. URRRGHH!!
why can't i stop myself?? that's why i'm trying to detach myself
from the thoughts so that i won't feel this way. BUT STILL, it's
there!!

haay.. i just want things to be normal. bye...