awww..

wala lang. i was so excited to get into thor and spend a little more time with red. pero hindi nman ako mkapasok. kung kelan wala silang pasok. haay. parati nlang ang malas namin. as if hindi kami pingtatagpo. there was this one time pa, nghhintayan kami hehe ang weird. he was texting me pala, pero ung messages lahat bumagsak nung wala na, tapos na break ko. how unfortunate. grr.

i haven't been myself lately. feeling all down and i don't know.. anyway, 5 more days and red and i will be having our 22nd monthsary na hehe. sometimes i wonder, wow ang tagal na pala namin.. time seems to be flying so fast. haay we've been through so much already.. so many emotions have passed between us. anger, depression, loss, sadness, commitment, love.. so much love. it's hard to imagine that all of these happened during a span of less than two years. hehe. i want to fall all over for a thousand times. i miss my beb.. my babuy. hehe i know i can't be all lovey-dovey to him kasi, ayaw nya daw. he just becomes sad. so eto. i'll be lovey-dovey to him without him knowing about it. i'll be his babuy forever.. he'll be my babuy. that's what i'll call him even though he doesn't like it. hehe. i'll be rebelliously in love. i don't care hehe. i need to love and be loved in return. i love my beb..

mgtetelebabad ako sa knya./gg my dad has those cards at home na ewan ko kng gngamit so kkupit akong isa haha. or two? or three? haha bahala na! i'm just waiting for that time when i will be able to hear his voice again. the last time i talked to him was.. on his birthday. october 1. haay hehe i wish na mas mdalas kaming nkkapagusap. his yahoo voice doesn't work so out of the options na un. hehe snabi ko sa knya na sana he would call me naman, or write to me.. but he hasn't done so. anyway, hehe i don't want any gifts or what, i just want a letter. that's what i've been telling him dati pa.. na sana he would write naman. before i wrote to him often. pero ngaun, prang wala lang, not that i don't want to anymore, it's just prang di nman narereciprocate ung gngawa mo eh.. oh well. cge ssulat ako kasi mtagal na akong hindi ngssulat eh hehe. for christmas.^_^

eto na ang end ng rambling post na toh. wala lang. red didn't go online in ym. haay. sad. oh well.. next time cguro.. next time.. next time.. next time.. next time.. next time.. haay.