happy thanksgiving.

.. although for me, there's nothing really to thank/celebrate for. i'm terribly sad. but i don't show it haha. i don't want others affected with what i feel, not that i have that many i could confide in. i'm freely going to lakeland na, sa relatives namin for this weekend. bahala na what happens. haay i haven't texted red yet.. since this morning. paninindigan ko tlaga if that's what he wants. playing thor has not brought any good to our relationship. don't know why. haay.. i'll just go and eat leftover turkey. haha just posted, JUST BECAUSE. i'm terribly person-sick hehe. oh well.. di nga ako pmunta sa dun sa thanksgiving dinner dun ke tita lorreto.. didn't want to anyway. ala lang, maybe may text or something eh. oh well. i'm have ham and turkey.. good. maybe tomorrow will cheer me up haha. SALE. something to take my mind off the problem haha!!

i'm level 55 na in thor.. thanks to red hehe. the leveled more than half of that. thanks thanks. as if nman mbbasa nya haha. msama loob ko. here's an excerpt(>.<) from our altercation kanina.


diane: ano gusto mo kpag pmunta ako dyan itatali mo ko?
red: hindi. i'm not expecting naman anything from you.. i'm not expecting na ppunta ka.
diane: ah ganun pala o sige don't expect anything!!

wala.. it hurts.


P.S. to people out there reading this blog.. you know who you are.. pede favor?? can you just not mention this to me? i mean, don't make me feel better or worse or whatever. it's not that i don't appreciate the kindness and support, it's just that i don't want to talk anything about it. not now. i have a lot on my mind now.. thanks to me not talking all day. hahahah.


thank you, thank you for reading/commenting my posts. it's just nice when you here other people's thoughts on what you think. hehe dati kasi prang all i had to talk to was.. my head. hehe mga tanong ko and thoughts, utak/heart ko ngdedeliberate at sumasagot. it's just.. sad. it's sad to be alone talaga. i wish no one else feels like this. it's even sadder when you go online, wishing, hoping, PLEADING na sana andun ung ibang tao, and all you get is.. more sadness. this is where i pour out. this is my journal.


KUYA JAUREL, gmawa ka na ng blogger account mo nlang hehe. so that, i could make this my private blog.. just as ung ke kat. haha i just opened this kasi kat can't get into my blog dati. now i bet kat can get in.. right kat?? i mean, para kau lang ni kat nkkabasa hehe.

till here muna. am planning on sleeping early tonight.. i have to wake up early tomorrow. the stores open early.. about 5 am haha. unahan kasi sa mga stuff eh. well, wish me luck waking up! ahahhaa. basta final na.. SONY CYBERSHOT DSC-W50. haha i won't change my mind na.. hehe ang gulo ko kasi eh! anyway, I'LL DROWN MYSELF IN FOOD AND COKE NALANG! WISH ME LUCK!! TURKEY AND HAM, MAGTAGO NA KAYO!!!