crazy and confused.

easter weekend. well, it was a nice weekend spent with family.. singing songs in the car, eating our hearts out in the buffet, surprise egghunting, you know those stuff. went bisita iglesia-ing. which was okay. humm.. a nice respite from being cooped up in the house. a respite from going online only to argue with somebody.

i'm getting tired of it already. sometimes, it's like i don't feel anything anymore. i don't feel hurt, anger, frustration, nor love. just, nothing. i don't want to feel that way about this relationship. i've invested so much into it -- time, emotions, money, a lot. but then, when is enough enough? i know i should have asked this a long time ago, but it's really hard when you love a person. accepting him as he is.. thoughts muddled by love.. it's hard. but it's just so hard loving a person who has completely opposite ideals as i do. someone who wants to put our relationship first before anything -- before family, studies, having a life. i know in a way that's ok, you wouldn't wonder if he's cheating on you or not. but there just comes a point when i just choke. when i can't take it anymore. when i need other people too. as i told him.. "man does not live on bread alone." i can't live on him alone. if i don't see a change in his ideals soon, i just don't know if i could continue anymore. i've told him countless of times what my ideas are. the ball is in his court not mine. i know that i am perfectly fine, normal, sane. but he.. he cannot accept that he's wrong, that there's something wrong with him. haay. i just don't know anymore. i just don't know..