haay forgive me pero.. putanginang buhay ito.

sorry for the expletive wala lang i'm tired with my life. wala lang. eto a list of what makes today SOO crappy.

1. my head hurt the whole day hindi ko alam.. i think it's because of the stress.
2. we went to the doctor, waited for more than an hour, and when FINALLY the doctor came, told me my knee is still NOT better. may swelling pa daw. placed me on steroids for another 2 weeks. joy.
3. Leonard Vallas. chief estimator. what's to like? haha. got to work.. called by him.. telling me that what i was doing was wrong.. specifically saying.. since you're not here all the time.. as if i'm the worst person in the world. ugh. i hate him. haha. even called by earl as.. FRANKINSTEIN. eww.
4. got late for anatomy. no biggie. pero being late and not being able to print the lecture? ughh. yoko nun. haay.
*thinking of what happened today just makes my head go THUMP. THUMP even harder.
make it stopp!!!!!*
5. printed airfares from online. was quite excited about it. then when my mom picked me up, di kwento.. snsabi na may nkita akong mdyo mas mura. then tnanong ko, ako nlang mgisa.. sabi, hindi, ikaw pumili kung sang tito o tita mo gusto. pero hindi pedeng ikaw lang. prang WAAA! ayoko kaya.. and another thing tinanong ko, alam na ba ni dady? ang sagot, HINDI. i cannot comprehend hehe. wala lang. i know he'll get mad. i don't care really. pero nkkainis eh. i know my dad.. try everything to stop me. the kontrabida of my life. FOREVER.
*and the top reason everything today just wouldn't go right...*
6. I JUST CAN'T CONTACT RED. he was texting me, and i was texting him but the problem was, hindi kami mgkatyempo!!!!!!!! i don't know what the hell is wrong with the communication system, ewan ko ba, is it the change in time?? ano ba?? he just can't receive my messages damn it!!! puta! sorry tlaga pero it's just soo frustrating!!!!!!!! i hate it! alam mo un he's texting na why am i not texting, and he's all worried na and texting even from chikka, you know we were trying our best to reach each other, even only a thread, huhu ung connection lang na alam kong alam nyang andun ako.. pero wala! cguro mga 10 texts na un! thinking of it nga lang makes me cry!!!!!! lam nyo un, he's thinking maybe i forgot to text him na pero i'm there! i texted!! bwisit! huhuhu..

i'm crying tears inside of me. i'm holding it back. i've never felt like this in a long time. Lord please help me. i know i'm not supposed to be blogging, instead i should be working to get rid of the problem, pero Lord it's just to much. Lord give me the courage and strength Lord to face what challenges i know tomorrow will bring. huhu, i need a friend Lord, i know you're the only one i can turn to. Please help me, Lord.

i just typed my prayer. haay. Lord, tulungan tayo ha? i know you'll guide me through this. Bless those i care most too Lord. hehe, Lord sana alam ko ngddream pa ngaun un si red, please whisper in his ear that i love him so much. haay. i just want him to know that.T_T haha had to stand up there and breath. i had tears in my eyes, but i don't want to let out what i'm really feeling. Lord please take the pain away.

Please, Lord.

happy halloween...^_^

haha haven't posted the kimono pics of me haha na sabi ko.. i will eventually hehe.^_^ tomorrow, we're going trick or treating.. wow noh tanda ko na? pero yesterday, while my brother was shopping for a costume, harry potter hehe, most ng mga ngsshopping are not little kids.. they were teenagers/adults my age>.< la lang haha tapos ung mga pinpili nila ung mga sexy stuff.. i don't know. is it expected na once teenager ka na, that kind of stuff ang type mo? ala lang it seemed weird, kasi if it were sexy or quite revealing, ung mga fat suits naman or bsta ung kttawanan. i don't know. i don't think na ganun ang dpat na iportray nilang image of a teenage girl. kaya tuloy it drives american teens to eating disorders eh.. bakit naman sa philippines, although heard of na, it was virtually unheard of before. who ever thought of throwing up the food they just ate? it's just digusting and wrong. nicole richie.. i heard just checked herself in to a "nutrition" center. helo? eh my youngest brother nga is heavier than her eh! ugh.. I HATE THAT NOTION. THINNESS IS NOT THE MEASURE OF ONE'S BEAUTY. look at me, i'm not thin, pero ganda padin?^_^ hahaha! wala lang..

anyway, tomorrow we are going trick or treating. my mom's officemate, Les, invited us there and with the way he was so excited about it, mukhang mganda nga. sabi nga niya, his wife will take the day off tomorrow para lang mgprepare>.< whoa ha. so anyway, i'm not going as a thin cheerleader, or a sexy devil, or whatever. i'm going as a geisha/japanese person.. conservative and appropriate for me.^_^

when i got home from school, we carved the pumpkins we bought yesterday from the pumpkin patch. haha nkki-americanized na din kami noh ha.. carve the pumpkins oh diba?^_^ haha. wala lang. and ala lang, just want to show my "masterpiece." copied straight from the book! haha!


o diba? pumpkin...^_^


kissy, kissy mr. pumpkin.. with glasses..


and without.

Happy Halloween Everyone!

hahaha.

well, today. is. okay. hahaha ala lang we were out almost the whole day.. first we went to the thrift store na nadiscover namin ng momy ko yesterday haha and guess what i bought. kung khapon, mukha akong eskimo, ngaun naman.. kimono!!! wahahahah! well i don't know if it really is a kimono, but it sure looks like it! i'm posting some pics here *wait, i'm model for the webcam first haha* anyway, la lang, prang ang haba ng araw. we've done a lot na pala hehe. i'm showing red those pics too.^_^ i haven't talked really to red since ngsem-break. wala xang money. i understand naman eh.. honestly, he isn't from a family na, wow ang yaman or un.. gets. ala lang i don't care naman eh, i don't consider that. hehe pero what makes my heart swell, is ung alam ko na ngang ala xang money, walang panginternet card and text, but he still finds a way na kahit ppano, i'd hear from him.^_^ I'M SOO LUCKY WITH MY BEBE.^_^ ala lang, alam mo un ung effort?<3 one time, ngpunta xang comp shop and nkigamit lang xa saglit sa main computer, kasi frend nya ung mayari, so walang bayad. another time, "hiniram" nya ung internet card ng kuya nya haha. another text xa once lang kasi may nhanap na money. ala lang.^_^ haay i want to thank him with all my heart.^_^ thank you beb for making such an effort.^_^ can't help but smile..

haay haay. i think i have to curb my spending na or else i won't save enough for my trip back home. well, yes, complete na ung nasave ko for airfare..*woohooo!!!* pero you know? for other stuff like knwari malling, gimmicks, pasalubong to and from.. i need money for that too noh>.<>.<>.<>.<>.< ugghhh!! enough with the expenses diane!! *since i don't know if anyone still reads this, forgive me for talking to myself.

i am PLANNING to start with my algebra homework.. no biggie naman dali lang algebra. then there's studying for anatomy which is the least favorite subject next to composition for me. haay. 6 weeks till the semester is over.. CAN'T WAIT!

miss my beb soo i am planning on buying him internet load from online.^_^ weehheee...^_^ THANK YOU LORD FOR GIVING ME A JOB SO THAT I COULD FREELY BUY WHAT I WANT AND FOR GIVING ME THE OPPORTUNITY TO SAVE TO GO HOME. INDEED, GOD IS GREAT!!!^_^ THANK YOU LORD!

haay.

haay. di padin si kat ngccomment. yoko na nga mgpilit hehehe. kung gusto nya di fine, aus. kung hindi, aus lang din.

anyway, 3 na ng umaga and we just got home from sa house ni tita honey. aww they're moving na tomorrow and ala lang kakalungkot. prang family na din kasi eh. may times prang gabi gabi dito xa kain dinner hehe tapos ala lang at home na hehe. tapos si benjamin huhu.. knina nkkaiyak hehe.. tintawag na xa ng momy nya alis na sila, eh dito xa sa room ko, iaayawan ba nman nanay nya! hehe.. tapos knwari ng bbye ung mom nya para bka sumama sabi ba nman sa momy nya.. bye! awww.. un that's why i ended up going to their place. dpat parents ko lang at coffee sila dun pero sama na din ako hehe. anyway, they're coming back naman on november 17, i think. basta may concert ang wiggles and benjamin loves them haha. tapos sabi ni tita honey, which she repeated na ilang beses, bbilhan nya ko ng ticket for christmas papuntang michigan>.<>.< merong mga ngiice fishing hehe. i don't think i'm ready for THAT cold.. mukhang malamig ata un hahaha!!

my mom and i went to a thrift store knina. parang ukay ukay pero aus naman ung clothes ung di nman ung tlagang panget. may mga labels pa nga haha. anyway, we were looking around ala lang we haven't been to that thrift store before so explore lang kami, looking at what they have. tapos eh near closing time na un so la ganung time and la naman kaming bbilhin in particular so lakad lakad. AND THEN, i saw it. a coat. hahhaa. it's a winter coat! and i tried it on, fit na fit. prang made for me to find! hahahah! well, to describe it, to give a better picture.. have you watched snow dogs? you know, dentist from miami going to alaska? remember the girl there, Barb? that is almost the same coat!!!!!!!!! wahahaha! it was a sign! klangan daw pmunta akong michigan! haha! and know how much that was?? 6 dollars! yes! brand new parkas like that cost minimum na kpag maaus aus, 75 dollars. MURA NA DIBA! so un, i bought it. wala lang trip lang. haha not knowing kung ano pgggamitan ko haha. impulse!!! oh well, aus lang ganda naman.^_^

i am seeing a trend here. it's like, a number of posts here in my blog are dedicated to the things i buy. grrr. am i beginning to be a shopaholic? nope i don't think so. i buy naman kung alam kong steal eh at ggamitin ko. hahaha wala lang just sharing.^_^

red texted me kanina.. ngaun plang evening and i think he ran out of load already. aus lang at least i still know that he was there.^_^ love my beb.^_^ kahit na wala na xang ipon mgtext lang o mkainternet. that's how he loves me.^_^ and soo, soo much more.

goodnight na. it's past 3 in the morning and i told my mom knina, ppunta kami dun sa thrift store tomorrow morning. morning kasi nga hapon, mgbbakasakali hehe na andun si red.^_^ haay thrift store shopping. it just proves na brand is not important. i mean, bsta prang don't be picky with your stuff. you'll never know where you'll find a bargain.^^

exhausted.

haay. short break lang hehe. pagod na ko kkasagot eh. still have no topic for english, where i have to write/compile at least 15 sources, MLA style, citations and all(which i might add was due nung tuesday pa so late na.).. AND another paper due for english na, a source evaluation of sorts. haay. lucky me noh? miss my bebe na.. wala na kami tampuhan hehe.^_^ ala lang, he doesn't want me talking with boys. hehe. eh nkwento ko nkkachat ko ung ka'mU' ni kat.. haha. aun. tampo. pero wala na un noh.^_^ it's his enrollment na daw ngaun.. and sabi ko sa knya full load na nya.^_^ ala lang hehe just to remind him, baka biglang tumagal pa ung studies nya eh.. la lang.^_^ hehe cguro sabay kaming mkkatapos ng college.^_^

did you know dati, nung si red ay nsa knyang "break" from school.. la lang, he was bargaining with me, pleading, na dun nlang daw ako mgaral sa pinas. uu naman noh sino ba nman saming gstong mgkahiwalay? anyway, hehe sabi nya, kung gusto ko nga daw pareho kami ng course eh hehe.. kung gusto ko daw preho nga kaming nursing eh.. haay la lang, prang from that, na-realize ko, he really does love me.^_^ THANK GOD FOR HIM.^_^

oh well balik aral na ako hehe.. bye bye. ugh.

a 'nice' way to end the day.

haay. got to speak with red tonight. not good. am numb haha but then, what can i do noh? haay. i'm just the luckiest person in the world ain't i? just SOO LUCKY. haay. soo much for waiting 4 days to get to talk to you na, haha you sucked all the happiness. happy thoughts gone. ang saya mo tlaga GRABE. thanks a lot RED. thank you thank you! haha wala na akong alam sa psychology tuloy i feel hurt. dumb emotions. haay. emotions are stupid. i am happy and gleeful! woopdidee!

kat naman haha.

grrr kat naman di ka padin comment?T_T grr.. hehe ala lang wala na akong mgawa eh it's a little before 1 am in the morning, andito padin ung mga friends friends, benjamin is sleeping na in the bed, pagud na pagud na ko.. grr wala naman akong mkausap online.T_T RED IS STILL NOT ONLINE. don't know why.. maybe sleep pa xa, pero knina nung ngtext din naman ako wala din xa di xa online o ngreply sa text. haay. it's been a day since we last talked. haha ang babaw ko noh? ala lang, miss the guy. really.

i've been talking with different people lately. si kuya jaurel, cue. kat's online friends.. hehe. si kat din nkkausap ko, pero she's not online lately soo eh sila prati online.. hehe nkkaaliw kausap. wala lang.

haay i'm tired na sobra. i've been playing with the kids (benjamin and rj.. james din pero they left early.) since around 6 til 12. hehe kung di umalis sila tito ruben cguro by now, we are still playing. they are like the energizer bunnies. ako din naturally, energizer bunny noh. hehe.. it's hard to keep up with them noh kung wala kang energy. haay too bad tlaga sila tita honey and benjamin are moving na to michigan. kakaiyak. been attached to the kid already hehe bait bait and very curious. tapos prang minsan lam mo un ako ung hnhanap! hehe.. knwari di ako mkita, biglang iiyak, atiii!!! hehehe.. la lang heartwarming naman diba? hehe. tapos ANG CUTE! hehe kala mo wlang filipino na alam tong bata.. mukhang amerkano eh ksi american dad nya.. kapag aalis na xa, sa top ng steps, mgssabi ng automatic, prang parrot.. UWII AKUUU!! hehehehe cute! hehe if i can only show you!:D

oh well hehe dito nlang muna ako mgbblog. i've been trying multiply pero ala lang.. i don't like it na sa buong network iaannounce na kung may bagong post or something. wag nyo naman iannounce noh. hehe. so i'm back here with blogger. aus lang, hehe the only people that i know ngbbasa nito is.. si kat. person pala! haha. she hasn't been reading it naman so.. ako lang. i just need an outlet kaya eto. i'm tired. yey ngtext na si red sa chikka. he's coming.^_^

tired, exhausted yet happy.

yes i am tired, yet again. haha. kanina nga the filipina librarian in the library(duh! san pa ba mkkita librarian?) was chatting with me tapos nbangit ko ung sobrang bigat kong schedule. haha sabi ba naman, "oo nga eh, kita sa mukha mo!" haha the stress is even starting to show on my face! not my pretty, beautiful face! hehe OA. anyway so un. cguro mukha akong constipated. haha. anyway, still have tons to do. pero at least i'm doing it diba? haha himala nga eh i'm done with my algeb homework na kahit kkatapos lang ng class! now, with mycomplab naman hehe.

happy you say? humm.. that's what i'm feeling. i'm in a state of utter bliss. paradise even. because, even despite the stress and work i do, at the end of the day, i have someone to come home to. (come home to meaning computer hehe.) ALFRED CANASA.<3 hehe i can't even remember the last time we fought. before a week won't pass without us finding something to quarrel about. pero ngaun hindi na. hehe kanina nga when we were talking, ala lang he told me the same thing.^_^ he was happy too.^^ WE'RE BOTH HAPPY. and that hasn't happened in a long, LONG time. haay being in a state of bliss. i never want to leave it. EVER.

hehe i took pictures of me wearing glasses. panget padin hehe. oh well, hear's some... *notice i'm wearing this shirt again. haha.*


me and my fat face. ick.


THE SUN REFLECTED ON MY EYES. LENSES NLANG PALA HEHE.


au' natural.


diane of the orient. (mukha akong chinese.>.<)

still kinda hurting.

hehe ala lang.. got to talk to red na kanina, if only for an hour. nkatulog daw kasi xa eh
and his phone got busted kya hindi xa mkareply. aun so una tampo tampo ako.. ala lang
i had no idea naman kasi eh. pero bnba ko nlang pride ko and wala na ung tampo.. so
un happy kami gnyan ganyan. tapos nung time na to say goodbye.. haay, ala lang nkka-
inis na nkkaiyak na tuloy.. prang lam mo un prati nyang nammention ung ganun pero
ngaun lang ako nahit ng malakas. snabi, sana love mo nga tlaga ako beb.. prang WTF?!
hindi pa ba halatang mahal kita! huhu ang dami na nting pngdaanan, dami nating sacrifices
for one another and still you would question if i love you?! huhu.. ala lang kainis eh huhu..
ung prang gusto ko ng umiyak at hilahin buhok ko sa frustration. haay. LALAKE.

i just finished painting my nails. la lang. they're all coral now. haha. haven't started with
any homework. bummer. anywhoo.. gusto ko ng matulog. gusto ko mkalimutan na tinanong
pa un sakin. humph. tapos pa.. kainis pa.. he always does this, kahit na ssabihin ng sstop na.
ung prang knwari ako si ninay! bwisit. ala lang prang sensitive ako dun eh. huhu sometimes
it just makes me cry. ung knwari wrong send na ninay knwari kausap nya pero wala nman
tlaga.. ala lang. kasi lam mo un, malayo na nga kami sa isat isa and there's no way for me
whether he really is seeing someone else. malay ko ba totoo na pala ung loko nya diba? huhu..
i hope naman hindi. haay.

hangang here nlang muna. instead of wasting my time at wala nman akong gngawang
homework, matutulog nlang ako at baka maaga pa akong magising hehe. au' revior.

i'm hurting.

hehe drama ko noh? la lang stayed up til 4 last night, then woke up at 10 expecting na sana
at least message man lang meron galing kay red pero, WALA. huhu don't know what's
happening to him right now.. is he sleeping? is he somewhere else? doesn't he have any load?
haay. i just feel depressed. hehe.. cguro first time in a long time na as in wala akong mkausap.
dati, kung mgkagalit man kami ni red, i always have kat to turn to. pero kat's not here too..
i don't have anyone else. ung mga people sa ym ko, i don't really talk to and i'm not in a
position to start now. haha kaya nga blog nlang ako ng blog. hehe. just wanted to talk to
someone, kahit na it's really no one. haha ala lang, just want to speak my mind out.

i feel depressed. i haven't felt this way in a long time, but i do now. haay.. not in the mood to
talk about anything really. haha gusto ko na nga lang lumabas and go somewhere but i cant,
malay mo baka dumating si red eh. haay.. love you red.

alone again haha.

kat and red still not online. bother. haay.. ala lang been feeling depressed na about it. red is out
buying clothes daw.. i don't know he didn't get into too much details at di na nkareply.. probably
ran out of load. this is the first times kasi na kapag online ako at may gngawang iba xa eh. it's
usually the other way around.. ako ung may gngawa. there's nothing wrong about it naman.
it's just i'm not used to it. i probably will. pero i don't want that to happen. i don't want to stop
missing him. THAT WILL JUST BE PLAIN WRONG. haha got teary eyed nga knina eh when
he said na he wouldn't be able to go online tonight. ala lang, hintay ko din naman kasi xa eh.

i haven't talked to him more than 30 minutes straight this since last thursday pa. haay.. i just
miss him. i suddenly felt what i was feeling right after arriving here, ung constant na pain sa
chest. ugh. aus lang.. at least i know, i feel. at least i know that there are definitely feelings for
him. kasi sometimes, cguro kapag i get too preoccupied with other things like school and work
and i'd just wonder, what am i really feeling? but really, now, in times like this, i know i love
him and long for him. hehe.. it's been a long time since ngaway kami. this is a first hehe.. maybe
more than a month na kaming di ngaaway. and i'm very happy about that. talagang dati, away
hindi naman all the time, pero about little things. i guess were just growing up. hehe.. i just
hope that, sa paggrow ni red, he wouldn't forget about me. huhu.. don't leave me beb. love you.

hehe.. prang status report ng relationship namin. haha. la lang i've been posting about mostly
myself i think lately so it's time for more about other things.

ciao.

diane is exhausted.

i'm tired again. weekend. rest. tired and burned. ugh. and to top that, di ko
pa mkausap ng maaus si kat and red..T_T i think there's something wrong
with red's internet connection and kat, well she's not online lately. i don't
know, or she's not in ym that much. she posts on friendster but di ko naaabutan
sa ym.. oh well.. just wait.

anyway, last night was tita rita's birthday. grabe ang daming pgkain and
she cooked it all herself. stir-fried vegatables in oyster sauce, baby-back
ribs, stuffed crabs, pancit, camaron!(bsta ung breaded squid, sarap!),
embutido she made pa from scratch, at saka KARE-KARE. hehe.. foodfest
galore! pero surprisingly, hindi ako ganun kadami kumain like before. hehe
i think i passed the stage of being a gutton. haha di na tulad dati na may
handaan, isusubsob ko mukha ko sa pgkain. ngaun di na msyado. passed
that stage already. woohoo! now.. how to shed the pounds i gained from
all the eating before? humm..

i am suddenly craving for cappucino chip ice cream. sa fort myers beach
lang un eh.. haha just when i thought of food, my mind actually flew to
that. yumm.. diane wanting cappucino chip..

i am missing red. not that we not talked everyday, it's just, di na tulad ng
dati na text text. haay yesterday nga, i only got one text message from
him..*teardrop*. last night after the party, i was waiting for him to 'wake
up' and to chat with me un pala nasa skul xa having a test. not that mgttampo
na ko for that, it's just he didn't tell me. huhu.. before prating up-to-date..
ala lang.. now nga, the reason why i'm writing a blog is because i'm waiting
for him. his brother's using the comp and while waiting daw, chikka nlang
kami. but he hasn't replied na. maybe he slept or ran out of load, i don't
know. haay.. lungkot na ko.. i missing my babuy terribly...

hngang dito nlang muna because am just really tired. my knee is hurting
again and i would probably walk with a limp again till tuesday. that was
what happened the other times i was this tired. played with benjamin and
the kids last night. it was fun but very tiring. benjamin is a very curious
and intelligent kid. knows how to say his name and his age at two. also
can identify his ABC's. and use the dvd players and laptops. genius kid.
hehe ang cute pa, hehe ngsstart na akong hanapin! haha.. last night bigla
nlang umiyak nung di ako mkita. then came running to me. and laughing.
hehe cute.

ok hangang dito nlang muna tlaga. will probably go and start doing my
homework. very tired and very stressed. good thing i have something
to look forward to. more or less 6 more months till i come home. woohoo..
can't wait. love ya'll.

week over.. for school.

wee tapos na skul hehe. haay pero no stopping for me, work tomorrow and
probably babysitting pa. phew.. nonstop. and endless na homework prang
di na naubus nkkainis. i have a migrane. kanina pa toh sa skul eh.. it's got
something to do with the eyes.. haha i'm wearing glasses na! buti din naman
noh ayoko pang mabulag. well anyway, i had two glasses made, ung isa
sunglasses na may grade ung isa normal glasses.. eh ung girl dun sa optical
huhu suot ko na ung normal glasses nbali pa nya! so now, i am pretty sure
kaya sumsakit ulo ko kasi hindi regular ung suot ko ng glasses. grr! and
my eyes are getting really blurry, nattempt na nga talga akong mgshades
in the classroom eh mukha naman akong bulag kaya wag nlang hehe.

kat noh tagal ko ng nkita ung profile mo humph! araw araw kaya ako
tumitingin sa site mo>.< haha anong picture sinsabi mo?? haha. hindi pa
ako nkkapagpicture lately hehe. no point din naman kasi eh wala akong
kasama. haha pero plano kong bumili ng digicam.. hehe mura lang eh, medyo.
prang meron nga 5megapixels prang 5k lang ung value eh.^^ so hehe bbili
ako.. uhmm pero not now. cguro before xmas.. prang merry xmas to me!

bumili ako ng para kay red ngaun.^^ kasi tomorrow ung filipino na architect
na ngtraining dito, si kuya riliene, uwi na sa pinas and ppadala ako.^^ hehe..
ala lang here i am writing on my blog when i haven't even written my letter
to my babuy. shame on me! hehe i bought him a watch kanina sa target.^^
sana mgustuhan niya un.^^ hehe para akong sugar momy noh? hehehe..
ala lang i don't care hehe i'm happy giving things especially dun sa special
na people sakin.. ala lang prang i don't get to spend time with them anymore
kaya prang huhu in that way nlang.T_T hehe am also sending money sa
kanya para bilhan si kat ng load sa ragna. hehe.. as promised kat!!^__^
thank you tlaga!!

oohh.. si kat ngeeyeliner din?? hehe ano ung iyo ung liquid? ako as in ung
old-fashioned pencil talaga eh.^^ hehe mura nga lang eh pero aus lang..
ung binili ko ung black tlaga hehe.. next time bbili akong ibang kulay. /gg
hehe knina nung ngpunta kami sa target, sabi ko sa momy ko bbili akong
kahit anong makeup hehe wala lang. tapos hehe sabi sakin, eh di mo nga
gngamit eh! haha true, true. eh kasi naman eh i'm not really ung kikay
msaydo. i only became interested in it kasi walang mgawa, or maybe sa
kkabasa ng chismis about mga hollywood achuchuchu. oh well.. not really
using. hehe.

hehe tama ka nga kat, people will change. pero hehe patawarin mo na ako,
i'm somewhat stuck in the past. i have no close friends dito, no one to talk to
face to face, it sucks. kaya ala lang it's as if i'm not changing. i'm stuck.
kausap ko, blog. nasa harap ng computer parati. it's okay with me. kasi
dahil sa computer nkakausap ko si kat at si red. sila lang naman important.
hehe did you know dindala ko na most of the time laptop ko sa skul kapag
ung long days(ie. tuesday, thursday) kaya nkkausap ko nga si red eh hehe..
haven't got the chance to talk with kat pa kasi sira internet nila pero aus na
daw hehe. ala lang prang alam nyo ung mga movies na ung computer may
brain? tapos xa ngrerespond sa tao? ala lang my life's like that. kanina, i was
eating in the canteen tapos knkwento ko kay red kung anong knkain ko
(cheese quesadilla and fries as always.) tapos eww xa ng eww hehe (di mahilig
sa cheese eh hehe.) ala lang i know kung kaharap ko xa un din cguro snsabi
nya.^^ ala lang haay.. miss computer, miss computer.. this is my life, i have
no choice.

hehe just want to post. blah day.

haha i just want to post something even though i just posted like 5 minutes ago. i just
converted to the beta version of blogger and nothing much to it. haha. this is officially 
the first post for the beta version.. whhoohoo. ANYWAY, i'm supposed to write two 
essays tonight and it's already 11:30 and i have yet to start on anything. weeee. and 
tomorrow pa, i have to babysit benjamin dahil ang nanay ay may date kaya minus 
"studying" time for me. haay.. why am i the queen of cramming? hehe there's goes 
the motivation i had to study kanina for psychology. hehe got a 74 there.. well may 
+4 daw.. dunno if plus to the percentage or to the raw score pero at least may plus. 
aus na ung grade na un noh, sa statistics ng teacher, 63 was the median grade. 36% 
got F's.. good thing i'm not one of them.^^ 

anyway, haay prang feeling ko it's been a long time na since i wrote about red.. i 
checked nga eh previous posts, un pala nung thursday lang! gawd that felt long! 
anyway, i was so happy nung ngtext si red tapos dumating daw si kat may cake
at ung sm gC's and thank you xa.^^ ala lang tapos un lam mo naman ako matanong
hehe di un tanong tanong ako ng details pero lam mo din naman si red.. not 
detail oriented hehe. i mean di mahilig mgkwento o mgelaborate! hehe complete
opposite ako eh! anyway, even though a few things didn't go according to plan, 
thanks to milenyo tskh, i am still very thankful and very happy. ^=^ thanks thanks!

i've been keeping track of philippine news lately. hehe. happy naman ako at 
gumaganda ang sitwasyon ng pilipinas. sa mga neighsayers dyan.. ako aus ako 
kay GMA, at least may ngyayari diba? ang gusto immediate na change eh that 
can NEVER happen eh. tapos there are those pa na wala n ngang gngawa but to
pull gma down instead of helping nalang pull the economy up. don't waste your 
time rallying noh mgtrabaho nlang kaya kayo. i read in an article na more us 
companies are looking at the philippines to outsource their operations kasi before
sa india sila, but then, india is getting more expensive and the employees are 
expecting raises and promotions every like 3 months? ala lang, what if mg-IT 
nlang kaya ung mga ngnnursing noh? kaysa ung lahat kayo mgcrowd dyan at 
mngdaya at mgretake ng mgretake, mg-IT nlang kayo. or engineering. or 
something else. hehe. 

me, i am rethinking going into the nursing industry. sabi kanina ng chiropractor
ko, 'if i'm still thinking of going into nursing, might as well mgdoktor nlang ako
kasi i'm gonna spent that long of a time studying.' and here i was thinking na 
wow, i two years pede na ko mgwork as a registered nurse. haha how wrong i 
was. then at least may bachelor of science ka na degree and that is just para 
registered ka and that takes 4 years. kung gusto mo tlagang mgaling ka, you
should take the masters pa daw. wow.. tapos eto pa, i am liking math more than
anatomy. ANATOMY IS A KILLER. eeeiikkk.. simple squamous, keratinized 
stratified squamous, stratified cubodial.. haay i don't think i could torture
myself with all that! tapos next test haha me getting ready to learn about every
single bone in the body and its function?? helo?? i wonder kamusta na ang
nursing si pilipinas. i don't know ala lang it has been too commercialized already.
lahat nlang gusto mgtayo ng nursing school. lam mo un sometimes, i think, how
would you know this school is credible? and where are they going to get qualified
teachers/nurse professors for that eh lahat nga lumilipad ng ibang bansa eh! haay..

wow ang dami kong nasulat ah hehe. goodnight na.. don't know what to do about
those two essays. haay bahala na nga! grrr.. guudnighttyy!!

quick one hehe.

i just really love utada hikaru's first love hehe and i was going through youtube
looking for other versions or whatever. haha just passed by these and really 
liked them. hehe sorry nlang and it's all the same song... favorite ko kasi.^^ 
cool piano grabe grabs!!!


shet! did you know this guy played this BY EAR?? galing tlaga ng mga koreano! hehe..
favorite ko toh.^^

 
the intro sounded weird pero aus din naman pala. mas simple ung isang version pero
aus na din hehe.^^


another version of utada singing.^^

ok hehe back to "doing homework."^^ i hate english and composition!!! eikkk!!!