Lord, please guide me through life.

life Lord has not been an easy task for me. it's been an uphill and downhill climb for me. there has been a few highs, and a number of lows too.


i know this is all a test Lord, this is how i treat everything. this is all a test.


i know that you separated red and me to test the loyalty and love we have for each other. i know that you brought me here for a reason.


i'm failing Lord, my defenses are starting to fall. help me keep them up, Lord, give me strength.


Sometimes i just cry out of frustration, out of hurt, out of fear, out of loneliness. Things go through my mind, it must be the devil at work making me lose my focus.


I think a lot and in those thoughts, i think of the what if's, the what might's, the until when's, the how's, the why's.. it is an endless process.


sometimes i feel alone, sometimes i don't. Lord, i know your listening. listen please to my plea.


i'm not asking for happily ever after's, i just want everything to be alright. make me happy Lord, i ask not of material things. i merely want happiness Lord, and that i see in the people i'm not with right now.


i let the tears flow Lord, for tears give me a much appreciated relief. relief from the hurt and sorrow, and from everything else that is going on. life is not bitter i know, but in my mind it seems to be. Lord help me through it.


i've addressed you lord in my past posts. i know your the only one i can turn too. You've helped me through thigh corners before. little things that have gone unnoticed. i know now that it was You all along, You Lord gave me knowledge and wisdom, trials and tests, which until now i've learned to accept.


but this time Lord, i don't know. i'm starting to be weak. i cry to release some of the pain, the hurt, the pressure. but Lord that isn't enough. haha am i going crazy?


I NEED HELP LORD.