wala lang hehe.

i am tired again. dito ako sa skul.. currently 5:10 na ng hapon.
been here since just before 9 in the morning and aalis ako ng
mga 8 pa. saya noh? urghh.. at least i'm done with my humanities
paper, hehe rushed graba. currently listening to first love..
on my blog hehe. AM NOT FEELING ANY BETTER. huhu.. mauubus ko na
nga ung roll ng tissue na dinala ko eh.. huhu and my bag is filled
with tissues. yuck.. eh i can't just leave it lying around diba?
but still all the mucus from my nose is killing me!! ang hina
talaga ng immune system ko huhu.. i was just sick two weeks ago
ngaun may sakit nnaman. nkkainis.

haay.. i missed red today. didn't get to talk to him this morning
kasi late akong nagising eh.. we got to email for quite a bit at
least.^_^ i my my jolibebe..

haha si kat naman ndi mahaba ung comment! hehe.. pero aus lang
it's better than none diba?^^ kaso nga lang ung comments di naman
ngaanswer dun sa mga question ko kay kat dun sa blog>.< oh well
hehe kapag ngkausap nlang.^_^

*FOR KAT: KAT OO NGA PALA SABI NI RED BBIGAY NA DAW NYA SAYO
XSIZTED.^^ HEHE SINABI KO KASI EH UNA ANG SABI, BIBILHIN?^^ HEHE
PERO SABI KO HINDI.. SABI AUS LANG HEHE HAHANAPIN DAW NYA.^^**

see kat!! red's not a bad guy!^__^

haay all i ate for lunch was a cheese quesadilla. i think i need
more food in my body. sobra na ako sa cheese hehe. ate mac and
cheese for breakfast kahapon, ate the quesadilla also nung tuesday
tapos ngaun pa hehe. wlang lumipas na araw na di ako kmain ng
kahit ano w/o cheese. kaya ako ngkakagas eh hehehehe.. i always
'gas' up kapag kmkain ng dairy.. must be lactose intolerant. eik.

oh well hngang dito nlang at 5:20 na pala.. have to pass by the
bathroom pa to unload the mucus from my nose para naman pgpasok
ko di ako singa ng singa.

good day!^__^

i feel sick. huhu.. am not in any condition to write here pero eto padin.
this will be a short one lang. just to let kat know na i can't
write that much pero i read her comments. i don't know kng bakit
prang may sakit nnaman ako.. i think it's a combination of a lot
of things.. kulang sa tulog, pagod, tapos nung isang araw pa naulanan
ako. sinisipon nga ako at inuubo tapos ang sakit pa ng ulo ko huhu..
i am having difficulty breathing again. do you think i have a respiratory
problem naman? grr... ayoko na pmunta ng duktor noh meron na nga
akong problema sa likod eh! huhu.. i'm supposed to be doing my 2page
paper for humanities pero prang wala nga ako sa condition mgisip o
kahit ano so sabi ko nlnag sa sarili ko, bukas nalang. haha.. classic
sagot ng tamad at ayaw gumawa. pero talaga huhu.. lam mo ung feeling
na ur eyes are bulging out na? ganun eh.. i think i need to sleep
already. pagod lang cguro toh.. uhh di pa ko mkahinga ulit!! nkkainis
naman!!!

hahaha.

haha just thought of the comment kat said yesterday i think. she said eww daw
ako kasi di ako naligo nung weekend..(o forgive me na dito lang naman kami sa
bahay buong weekend tapos centralized kasi so prang di naman nppawisan.) haha
i was thinking of that comment a while ago and remembered something! hahaha!
kat remember nung 3rd year ngsleepover ako sa inyo from xmas party til dec.
24 na nga un? hahaha and i remembered we didn't take a bath!!! haha! (sori for
the grossout pero minimal toothbrushing also.>.<) that was almost a week na
di tayo naligo at nkafocus sa ragnarok at paglevel-up!!

ok haha just remembered that thought.. soo hahahha! i am currently studying.
this is my break. (it's already 12:20 and i'm still in exercise 2.. 3 more to
go>.<) back to studying now. urghhh.. can't stand it.

AS PROMISED.

ok hehe as promised here's my blog-right-after-algebra. hehe nothing
much happened... was pretty happy with the scores/results i got from
english and algebra, so far perfect pa ko lahat hehe. kasi dito, basta
gumawa ka nung homework, perfect na hehe. the answers are given na din
naman sa book so ganun din hehe tiyaga lang talaga because they are
UBER long. given naman beforehand so pede ng magawa. the problem nga
lang sakin is.. TAMAD. hehe ung last homework for math cnram ko hehe..
STILL AN AUGUSTINIAN! and tomorrow, the homework for anatomy is due.
and know what? i started last night and i am not even finished with
it! i could have done it here but then, forgot the book. woohoo...

i forget a lot of things kapag umaga grrr... that is because i am
always rushing!! haha! know how much time i get to get ready?(get
ready meaning taking a bath.. dressing up.. you know.) about 15-20
minutes tops. haha 30 minutes would be heaven-sent na! know why??
eh kasi kausap ko si red eh! hehe.. tapos 8:00 to mga 8:20 valley
of loren sa MU and mataas ung bigay na exp dun so take advantage
diba? eh enzo has to be at the bus stop by mga 8:45-8:50. weee so
i don't eat breakfast most of the time na or if i do, i'd just grab
it and GO. haha kanina my mom was threatening na, IIWAN NA KITA!
MAG BUS KA NALANG MAY BUS STOP DYAN SA...!" hehe.. but of course
di ako iiwan nun, ako pa?^_^ so there i was, trudging down the
stairs.. hair still dripping, stoller bag in one hand, food in
the other, and anything that i might have forgotten and grabbed on
the way down with the jumble of stuff. haha if you could only see
me! hehe.. para nga akong sadako na sobrang madaming dala!! hehehe..

kapag dating naman sa skul it's just, kapag tuesdays and thursdays,
class.. break (computer).. class.. if my time, computer.. class..
break (computer at dito ako kakain.).. then on thursdays, class
nanaman. woohoo. i don't talk to anybody hehe ako lang. aus lang
akong ganito. pero sumtimes nkakalungkot din. buti nalang red is
just one text away. hehe. kapag mgcomputer man ako, masaya na akong
may ngcomment sa blog ko. isang time nanood ng fushigi yugi sa
skul.. hehe ginawang bahay. if i'm bored na with the computer o
may klangang skul work na gawin, di gagawin. that's my COLLEGE
life. hehe. it isn't like what others describe it.. fun, the time
of their lives, party.. for me, it's just another day in school.

alam nyo ba isang favorite spot ko dito sa library? it's a studydesk
dito sa 2nd floor na clear na clear ang view of the sky, tapos ung
malaking lake and trees. calming. one time nga when i bring the
digital camera (ala kasi akong memory card reader or bluetooth sa
comp ko.. one day it will have that hehe.) ppicturan ko. i like that
spot. haay.. kanina text ko kay red na sana mgkasama nalang kami dito.
ung nglalakad lang tapos prang ang ganda pa nung view. red and i
never really got to go OUT, out meaning ung mgpunta somewhere other
than in the city. ung beach or something like what other couples
sometimes do. the only place close enough to that was when we went
to enchanted. that wasn't really that fun. (last time we were
together... sadness.. iyakan blues.. get the picture.) tapos sinabi
ko sa momy ko na kapag umuwi ako ng pinas, sabi ko gusto ko mgouting
kami hehe. eh alam mo naman momy ko, group-date at ayaw kaming
dalawa lang ni red, sabi di prang grupo daw kami. sino daw common
frend/s na isama namin. xempre naman first person to come to my
mind is kat. hehe.. sana naman si kat mgchange ang mind at sumama
na samin sa mga ganun. sama pa xa ng ibang tao hehe. i hope na
kat's perception of red will change. ung hindi ung snsabi nya na
naleleft-out xa. maleleft out ka lang naman kat if you make yourself
left-out. kung mgwwithdraw ka sa conversation, di left out ka na nga.
hehe advise un kat!!!^___^ parang naisip ko un with what my mom was
saying to yado. yado was on his usual moods again. duh panget kasi un
eh. so un.. prang snsabi ni yado, 'i'm dumb.. i'm dumb..' na sobrang
nakakairita. di sabi ng momy ko naman, if you think you're dumb,
you're really making yourself dumb. eh kita mo na grades mo mas
mataas pa nga sa highest score dumb ka ba nun? TANGA LANG MGIISIP
NUN.

weirdo ang aking kapatid kaya pagpasenxahan. wow i didn't notice..
parang i was just talking to myself in my head, ang dami ko na
palang nasulat! hehe.. kung ano naiisip ko nga un na ung sinusulat
ko eh. haay.. this is what happens kapag napapansin na ang
aking laway. boses ko imbes na sa bunganga ko lumabas, sa utak
ko na. o diba ang galing?

oh well hangang dito nalang. 5:15 na at ang alam ko ay 5:30 daw
ako susunduin. maya maya mgaaral nalang muna ako! know how many
sheets of notes i have? 1 inches or more thick. weee. powerpoint
slides kasi.. but still. kanina nung pnakita ko sa tabi ko, i
was feeling tears na in my eyes. I CAN'T DO THIS MUCH! Lord help
me.. PLEASE.

GOODBYE FOR NOW. intensive studying to do. ugghhh...

A QUICK ONE.

haha i just commented on kat's site and i can't help myself..
i need to write! oopps... sudden hurting of the abdominal area..
got to go to the bathroom! eikk!! mamaya nlang ako mgppost hehe
got no time anymore. next class in 10 minutes but still have to
dash to the bathroom!! waaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I FEEL PRETTY.^_^

hehehe. just wanted to put into SONG what i'm felt today.
WOOOHOO.


today is a good day. after a rough patch this morning, a few
revelations and misunderstandings past, I AM FINE. i felt really
good until now haha. that's why i feel like humming that song.
of course i know I'M PRETTY. hehe.. i felt really good that i
played and tickled and kicked and chased after enzo and paco.
felt good that i bought and ate cinammon rolls with ice cream
on top. felt WONDERFUL that i was kinda dancing around in my
skirt and twirling around. haha. i didn't realize how these two
people affected me so much.

ala lang si kat aus na ko sa kanya hehe. got to clear up a
couple of things and now were ok. hehe i'm even talking to her
right now! currently talking about unwanted body hair. weee.

red was his usual happy joking self already hehe. none of all
the drama we had last night hehe. grrr even had the courage to
bring up ninay kanina. he said, "ano ka ba si ninay maganda
kaya un!".. i said,"pero wala ng tatalo sakin! ako pinakamaganda!
the best ako!!" hahahaha..

just felt pretty good today. THANK YOU, KAT AND RED FOR MAKING
MY DAY. WOOHOO.

gusto ko lang ipost.

haha gusto ko lang ipost.. para akong tanga! ala lang.. i feel
stupid getting excited over nothing. i'd always say, "ay baka
ngaun meron na!" yun pala wala... haay. HAPPY ME. JOY JOY JOY.

I WANT TO WATCH FUSHIGI YUGI.. NOW!

grrr.. naaadik na akong mghanap ng mga episode ng fushigi yugi
online. grr.. if i don't find it, there might be this force that
will make me buy it! grr.. kahit di ko maintindihan ung songs,
i definitely feel the sorrow. grr.. tapos pa dun sa mga AMV
bsta videos i watch.. I GET REALLY INTRIGUED. huhu.. mgppost nga
ako ng mga videos dito.. haha kasi naman nkkahiya at andito
ako sa library ng edison. at least my headphones.^_^ weee...
mghhanap pa nga ako ng ibang anime. really.. I'M A SUCKER FOR
LOVE STORIES AND HAPPY ENDINGS.



don't understand it pero nkakaiyak.T_T




this is the opening theme na slower. (naks prang alam na alam hehe.)


** wooohoooo!!! i found i playlist that had all the episodes!!
weeee yey ME!** back to regular programming..(songs..)

PARA AKONG UNGGOY.

hehe.. ala lang i'm here in school. yet again. i'm getting sick
of it hehe. joke. ala lang i was up till 2 ata last night finishing
my algebra homework.. haha 10 pages long ata ung homework ko. oh
well ngaun di pa ko tapos but i'm here on the computer. why?
waiting for red.. haay may tampuhan kami. GREAT. haha patong patong
na lahat diba?

haha and add to that, i am listening to that song
again.. ON THE OUTSIDE? haha.. I HATE LOVING THAT SONG. talaga,
naiinis ako kasi gusto ko un and it just adds to my hurt. haha
dramatic pero ganun eh..>.< para akong stressed na stressed ngaun.
GOD HELP ME.

humm.. yesterday ngbabysit ako kay benjamin. hehe madali lang naman
pala eh.. nung una i thought he was going to cry and i wouldn't
know how to make him stop pero he didn't cry the whole time! he
was just there watching/flipping through his DVDs.. and he was so
happy watching his reflection on the glass doors haha.. then we
were playing with balls haha he was tossing them around then we
would march going to it.. then i did this thing haha from toy story
(remember.. buzz lightyear? 'to infinity, and beyond!) haha and
favorite nyang movie un grabe hehe. so i would carry him and put him
high in the air saying, to infinity and beyond! haha.. IN SHORT,
ME AND BENJAMIN HAD A BLAST. haha.. see mga kaibigan ko bata??
i can go on and on about the fun i have with other kids hehe pero
there's just too many. HUMM.. I WAS CONSIDERING BEFORE BEING A
PRESCHOOL TEACHER. hehe.. but then maybe the kids won't see me as
a teacher pero maybe more of a playmate. weee.. i am not an
authority figure.

haay.. if my life was just as UNcomplicated as that with those
kids.. hehe di ndi na ako masstress. kids make me happy these
days.. and red.. when we're not fighting hehe. haay.. i just
want to be happy. (wait.. that's what red says too hehe.. miss
him.)

and my fixation with MU? uhmm.. it's just nothing. it's just to
pass time. and to help with red too hehe.. if kids make me happy
besides him, sa kanya naman is MU. kaya nghhunt ako kapag gabi
malay mo may swerte diba? hehe.. kasi naman pede lang iiwan na
nka-AFK so aus lang. may 3 naman na comp sa bahay.. hehe minsan
nga gngawa ko is i use 2 computers.. one for his account and one
for mine. his character is 20 levels away from being 400.. the
highest level. mine is 302.. i think. hehe so kapag 400 na xa
and mgkaparty kami, all the experience would go to me! haha..
plano kasi naming mging MR. AND MRS. MU. haha. *ok time for me
to stop yapping about this.


30 minutes since i sent red an email. 30 minutes and still he
hasn't replied.

THIS HITS THE SPOT.

this song from read it and weep sure hits the spot. just
GREAT. thank you very much. *teardrop.*




you don't know how it feels, to be outside the crowd.
you don't know what it's like, to be left out.
and you don't how it feels, to be ur own best frend,
on the outside...



nice. great. splendid. terrific. swell. spectucular.

some words that DO NOT pertain to me.


found the song on youtube.


i feel like crying hahahahha!!!



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haha para akong baliw. this song just brings tears to my eyes pero i can't
stop listening to it. grr.. bad feelings PLEASE go away. i am.. for the first
time in ages, DEPRESSED. yet again.

SETTING THE RECORD STRAIGHT.

haha just to set to record straight.. i was not sad about my
relationship with red haha.^_^ i'm on a bed of roses haha. (actually
just lying down haha.) it's something different not in any
way connected with red! haha!

i'm here at home.. alone. haha know why? because i BEGGED, no,
CRIED, literally, just to stay home as we were invited nanaman
to our tita's place. ala lang there's this prang weekly
kita-kita lang ng family frends hehe. pero i was just so
DAMNED exhausted. add to that pa na i still have difficulty
breathing. i was just so tried from work. i was literally standing
for more or less 8 hours. joy diba? tapos cguro all in all nka-
2 miles na akong lakad to and from one table to another! grr...
i was scanning the whole day.. want to know the routine i go
through when i scan?

>get heavy, bulky plans from terry's office.
>unroll and PAINSTAKINGLY take out the staples 2 inches long.
>put one sheet in the scanner.
>take out sheet from scanner and walk a couple of feet to
another table to put scanned pages.
>repeat arrow #3 for let's say, 100 pages per set?

today i did more than 350 pages. the space in between my big
toe and the next toe is red and it isn't gone yet after an
hour without shoes.. oh and did i mention the paper cuts??
haha.

haay.. here i am yapping about myself hehe. just want to
release to tension of work. i need to sleep. NEED IT AS IF
MY LIFE DEPENDED ON IT. but i can't haha. right after this post
i am planning to raid the ref. don't care if i finish all the
calorie-filled pastries in there. DO NOT CARE. i am hungry and
tired and no one can stop me. haha kanina nga when my mom was
still asking me if i'd go, mgslippers na daw ako mgshorts, wag
ko na daw laruin ung toddlers..(benjamin and rj) haay i just
cried out of frustration. hehe.. part of why i didn't want to
go kasi nga kapag andun ako, laro nanaman ako with the kids.
eh pagod na nga tapos maharot pa na play? TAPOS mmayang gabi
mgcchat pa kami ni red? it was just too much haha. di pa nga
ako nkarecover sa pagod ko kahapon eh.. (whole day in school..
9 am-8:30 pm. wow.) tapos super pagod pa ngaun.

HAHA I KNOW I SHOULD JUST STOP RANTING ABOUT THIS. I SHOULD
STOP HEHE. NO ONE WANTS TO HEAR HOW TIRED I AM HAHA. SORRY
NALANG HAHA.

oh well.. on a different note..(finally!) ung sadness na
nraramdaman ko yesterday prang nadagdagan lang ngaun haha.
lungkot at inis. great. i shouldn't even feel this way
anyway! grrr.. i am such a freak. joke.

haha.. anyway, it's time for my ref-raiding to begin!

auf'd. (aufi dazi? bsta whatever heidi klum says when she
says goodbye to a departeee.)

haay.. i don't know what i'm supposed to be feeling right now.
sad? happy? humm...

i'll just talk about the happy part because the sad thing is
really... POINTLESS. again i repeat, i am happy with my relationship
with red right now. i'm here in the library nga waiting for him to
reply to my email. (haha he replyed already!^_^) kanina, i wasn't
able to talk to him that much kasi the lrt he rode daw kept on going
broke that's why he spent more than an hour in there. anyway, at
least we're talking right now.

hehe.. i'm sorry if red is all i talk about lately. it's just that
he makes me happy.. i haven't felt this way about our relationship
for a long time. that's why i'm basking in the feel of it. haay..
I HOPE SOME PEOPLE WOULD COMMENT ALREADY EVEN THOUGH YOU DON'T
LIKE THE PERSON OR SOMETHING IM TALKING ABOUT. haha..

humm.. i think i've exhausted the topic about red already so i'll
talk about something else. humm.. college life. nothing great about
it like what i read from others. well, for me it isn't. might
be because i'm in a foreign land. haha.. ala lang it's really
different when you're here. it's just too.. serious. maybe i'm
just not used to this kind of thing. I'LL GET USED TO IT. hehe..
what's bumming me out pa is that i don't go with anybody. i mean,
no one. no one to sit beside in class.. during lunch.. talk to..
no one. haha.. anti-social ko noh? ala lang hehe.. at least during
the free time that i DO have, i get to talk with red.

psychology class was.. boring today. humm.. i guess i learned
something. TIGER WOODS' WIFE BOUGHT A LABRADOODLE. ohh joy. i had
to fight myself from closing my eyes. haha sorry to the person
behind me as i was shifting all over the place.

haay.. ok something's GOT TO BE WRONG with me. ala lang haay..
i just don't want to mention it because it's just.. URRRGHH!!
why can't i stop myself?? that's why i'm trying to detach myself
from the thoughts so that i won't feel this way. BUT STILL, it's
there!!

haay.. i just want things to be normal. bye...

POSTING YET AGAIN.

hehe english was so fast.. like 20 minutes long. we only had
a diagnostic test and that was it. no checking or whatever. hehe
great. haha i devized (sp.) a schedule already haha so that i
could talk with red. ^_^ every break i just head on down to the
library and then we would go and exchange emails.^_^ haha and
it's working really well. hay i don'w know.. i just feel really
good about our relationship now. i hope this lasts.. forever?
I HOPE.^_^

humm.. i've got nothing much to write about anyway.. nothing
really important. haha and i also thought of what to give
red on his birthday already. well sort of. last sunday, me and
my mom went to old navy (w/ yado.) and i was really planning
on buying red new stuff. t-shirts.. a bag.. rubber shoes.. that
kind of stuff. well i told my mom that and she said that
shipping for something that heavy was going to be likely VERY
EXPENSIVE. almost or more than the items itself. so she
suggested why don't i let somebody buy red's present from
there. why don't i just remit money so that i could save money?
then we thought, why not a gift certificate?? but i was
hesitant at first because it seemed impersonal and i wanted
something that i really thought of. so then i remember the
online gift giving service.. like cakes delivered straight to
their house on his birthday talaga! soo that got me hyped!
so that's the gift certificate to nike or SM and that gift thing!
i was so excited that i wanted to buy the present right then
and there!

oh well haha.. isn't i obvious that i'm in love?^_^ i feel like
i'm in love all oover again. wishing i'd have my prince
charming beside me soon. love him.

EVERYTHING IS RIGHT.. FOR NOW.

haay.. everything is well and blissful for me and red right now.
we talked for a couple of hours yesterday and we fixed it.. sort
of. well, i can't complain much haha. it's just i love him so much
and i wouldn't want anything wrong to happen. after that talk, ala
lang he's become more open na hehe about school and such. kasi
prang sinabi ko sa knya, the reason why tumagal ung kwentuhan namin
ni nikole(which is somehow true.) kasi kapag kay red ako mgkkwento
ng mga bago kong naeexperience dito, he would say, 'o cge buhay
mo yan..' or something that would just blow me off. kasi prang
he connects me being happy as a sign na hindi ko na daw xa iniisip
which is so not true. kaya in a way, oo nga gusto ko lang naman ng
may mpagkwentuhan ng mga nraranasan ko and someone who would return
the enthusiasm.

so un hehe.. kahapon nga knwento nya sakin, na excempted na daw xa
sa algebra midterms nya kasi almost perfect na nya ung practice or
something before. tapos lahat daw ng mga un, almost perfect din.
haha ala lang, ang saya ko nung knwento nya un.^_^ kasi before i
would ask him, anong ngyari sa skul.. and all he would say is, wala
naman. hehe.. I'M SOO GLAD WE HAD THAT TALK.

tapos sinabi ko na ung totoong schedule ko sa kanya, which is i would
still work while studying and he was ok with that! haha!! ang saya ko
talaga! xempre andun padin ung, beb pede wag ka nlang pasok kahit
friday lang? pero in a malambing way hehe.. tapos sinabi ko na din
na ung sabi ko before na xmas ako uuwi sinabi ko ngiba ung plano, na
summer nlang. of course he was a bit sad, dissapointed.. pero at least
he wasn't all MAD about it. he was even, eh ako kaya kelan ako mkka-
punta dyan? ^_^ *blushing.

right now, i am blissful. i feel IN LOVE all over again. i hope this
feeling won't go to waste.

haha.

haha i was just taking pictures for kat to see and saw that i
looked good in one of the pics. i can't believe i'm getting
vain. ugghh..